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I am sorry to say this, but recently some of yo may have noticed that I have not been getting on recently. For those of you who are wondering why, this is because, for me, it is only one month until my week of mourning for my mother who was hospitalized on a Monday in early December, who then died on the following Thursday and the worst part of it is that when she dropped me off for school that Monday I was mad at her, And I said "I hate you." under my breath. that was the last time I ever saw her, alive. I've regretted saying that ever since. That afternoon my mother was supposed to pick me up, but instead my dad did, he said my mother had collapsed at her office desk and was taken to the hospital, I was only nine at the time and only in the fourth grade, so I just thought that she would just be back home the next day. but she couldn't. My father told me that on Thursday the doctors found out she had a ruptured vessel in her brain, but by then it was to late. My heart turned to ice, my body wasted away, my eyes became bound to a soulless stare, and my mind through away religion. And I have never looked back, for there was nothing to look back to.

and now that it is closing on that time of year, I have lost all inspiration.

Edit: I am feeling better today mentally, and have decided to use this time to ask if this topic could be moved to "Creative Projects".